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20 October 2009 @ 11:35 pm
What's the most-played song in your music library?

"If your were wondering" sung by Hugh Jackman in the Broadway show The Boy from Oz. (it has even been my cell phone ringtone for over 2 years)
10 January 2009 @ 04:55 pm


With this new year I want hope of trying new things, enjoying what I have, improving myself. Instead I am facing an old problem: Pain and fear

I struggle with the desire to make changes. I want to lose weight, get healthier and stronger so I can try new things like playing golf, exploring the ocean and water sports available in our area. I want to look better so I feel better about myself and want to go out to do more. But instead my year is starting with phone calls to doctors and fear of what is to come.

 I don’t know what scares me more, that there is a problem with the artificial joint and it requires more surgery to fix or that there is nothing wrong with the joint and I just have to deal with the intense and almost constant pain in my face, ears and head.

 Which will be worse? Facing more doctors, travel time to reach those doctors, procedures, surgery, time off from work, stress about paying the bills and fear of complications or facing again the fact that I am only 34 and will have constant pain for the rest of my life. Pain that drugs do little to relieve or worse being denied the small amount of relief they do offer because my body can’t handle the meds on a daily basis.

Will this year bring change and hope or will it blend in the years that came before it with nothing more to show than doctors bills and disappointment.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
18 June 2008 @ 07:46 pm
How do I escape from my own mind and body? The pain, mental and physical, sometimes is more than I can bear. I want to be strong, I want to be more. But I am not. I am limited. The pain that comes and goes, the mental anguish  of dealing with the small daily struggles that should be easy to withstand. Combine and grow,more than is logical.
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent
18 June 2008 @ 04:56 pm
Character is not something you can learn but something you have. It is something that develops as you learn to deal with the realities of life and accept that life is something to be lived and experienced not planned and expected.
Character is a gift that allows some to accept the difficulties of life and to still find life worth living. Character allows for the bad without giving up on the good. It shows that you can always learn something new, always find the small joy hidden in the pain and see the concealed light at the end of the tunnel.
Current Mood: blahblah
22 May 2008 @ 11:36 am

Title: Grieving
Author: Katiemoose
Pairing: Greg/Catherine
Rating: FRT-13
Disclaimer: I don't own anything. 
Summary: The aftermath of Warrick's death brings two CSI's closer together
Genre: Het

Current Location: home office
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
16 May 2008 @ 10:56 am
 I am new to Live Journal. I found it while looking for fan fiction for CSI and have found some really great writers. Hopefully as I learn more how Live Journal works and read more I may write some of my own stories down.